June 1 - Starting Over

228.6 pounds

Uggh. Basically regained all the weight I had lost last year.

I have realized that I've spent a lot of time in the last few months lamenting at work how people just don't do what they know they have to do to be successful and then it dawned on me that I am doing the same about losing weight. I know how to lose weight but I'm just not doing what I know I need to do to be successful - eat less, exercise more. It's really that simple. All the diets in the world are designed to somehow trick us into CHOOSING to do what we know we need to do. It is all about motivation - until I WANT to eat less and exercise more, I won't permanently choose to do it and I will always just regain the weight.

Much of my eating is habit, ingrained over the years. I know most of the time, I'm not actually hungry. So, I have to dismantle the habit and maybe then I can consistently choose something else.

First up is eating after dinner. I usually eat larger portions at dinner (habit from growing up) so there really isn't any reason for me to be eating at 9 or 10 pm. But it's habit to sit in front of the TV and eat. It's so much of a habit that it's a compulsion - it seems almost wrong not to eat. I think I need to find something else to do with my hands while I'm watching TV. First plan is to break out my tablet and plan some inane game.

My goal is 15 pounds in 15 weeks. On my son's birthday 9/14/14 I want to weigh 223.6.