Beginning

This is my journey to get off the the yo-yo dieting and lose weight permanently. I am 5 feet 2 inches tall and I weight 224.6 lbs as of this morning. I have high blood pressure. I am nearly 48 years old.

I'm tired...tired of failing, tired of false hopes, tired of rolling the same stone up the hill only to have it roll back down as soon as I reach the top.

I've learned a lot about what doesn't work for me. I have some idea of what will work. Now is the time to put it into practice, inch by inch, step by step.

What I've learned about losing weight:

• It won't be fast. Not even 2 lbs a week. I've never lost that much consistently EVER even when I was eating one meal and one snack a day and exercising two hours a day. 1 lb a week is the best I will see. More likely 1/2 a lb to 3/4 of a lb.
• I will not ever be able to stick to a restrictive diet. Do not taste this, do not touch this won't work for me long term. It barely works short term. I often can't stick to a "plan" for more than one meal. I've got to learn how to eat less of what I normally eat.
• I have to exercise. Even on restrictive diets, I don't lose unless I add some exercise. Sitting around all day just will not get it done.
• I have to find a consistent time to exercise every day. Trying to fit it in when I can usually means it doesn't happen. If it's part of my routine, it will happen because it breaks my routine if I don't do it. Exercise just needs to be as automatic as possible.

I am hoping by journaling, I will be more accountable to myself about what is and isn't working for me.